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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

It Makes You Wonder




I took this picture a few nights ago and tonight I watched a sunset almost as beautiful. I'm always amazed by sunsets. I guess because it's the only one you will get for that day. You will never have another for that day..that's it..one shot. Kinda like life..you get one chance to live. As I sat and watched the sun go down beyond the trees and the colors deepen it was hard to imagine that anything bad or negative could be going on in this world we live in. But the deafening silence of my house stood as a stark reminder of the imperfect world we have. My husband and kids went to run errands..they didn't say they were leaving..didn't invite me to go or even say bye. They just left me..left me behind..alone. And while to some people that may not seem like anything bad..but to me..it is. it crushed me. I try to treat people like I would want to be treated. And I would have never done that to them. But..it is what it is.

So as I sat watching the sunset..I found myself deep in thought. I wondered how many people would not live to see another sunset. How many people would lose someone they loved before the next sunset. How many people had tears flowing down their cheeks just like I did. How many people sat hurting. How many people felt taken for granted. How many people tried so hard to give their life meaning. How many people knew they didn't matter. How many people tried so hard to make someone love them..only to realize that they couldn't. How many wondered if they disappeared would anyone even notice. How many people felt that no matter what they did they would never be accepted. How many people went to sleep hoping they wouldn't wake up. How many people did things that weren't appreciated. How many people smiled on the outside yet wept on the inside. How many people just wanted to love with all their heart and be loved in return. How many people were even taking the time to notice the sunset at all....once again..I'm alone.